Tuesday, September 11, 2012

So I found this picture with this wonderful quote on it while searching for something else. Today in my class I heard this awesome quote..."Set unreasonable goals and go after them unreasonably." Sometimes my weightloss is a never ending goal. I set mini goals all hopefully making my larger/longer goal possible. Somehow though I veer off track, not sticking with the original set goals. Thus become discouraged and not following through on any of my goals. Committed is where I need to be in my head, not just interested. Committed to change, committed to activity, and committed to myself. This quote just is an inspiration at this moment in my life. I feel as if right now I am finally allowing me to find myself. Allowing me to come into my own. We'll see how it all works out in the end. Ok maybe not the end but how about the next couple of months.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Am I allowed a reboot?

So here I am again. Why am I HERE again, well I don't know. I have practically perfection in my life. Is it like the Agent in Matrix said that humans were too happy living in peace in harmony and it didn't seem right so much so that they crashed the system. (or something to that effect) I mean my life is as perfect I think I can live it. Perfection and happiness is of course one persons opinion. I have so much that I am blessed with. I am so happy. Except of course 1 thing. Although I can usually hide my unhappiness with the other wonderful things in my life it isn't such a big deal. But alas it is. My weight and physical shape have everything to do with total happiness. So then why is it I am here again!? I don't think I am completely lazy. I don't think it isn't that I don't know how or what to do. The burning question, I keep asking myself over and over is why. Why can't I just get back into the healthy patterns? Why can't I get motivated to do this? I'm a repeat record I tell you. I am always on some sort of "diet" "lifestyle" or "weightloss" plan. I mean ask anyone who's know me for any length of time, 5 or more years. They'll tell you my weight has fluctuated up and down over a 100 pounds a few times. Its CRAZY! All the work, money and time I've put into being "healthy" makes me sick to think about. I'm just wasting time typing this up. I do it alot. Start and have no finish. I want to say this time will be different but am not confident and weather it is that lasttime.