Thursday, August 27, 2009

How to convince my brain to stop overeating???

The obvious fact is that all my life I've eaten too much. But why?
Throughout our evolutionary history, food has been scarce, so in order to ensure survival, humans have been conditioned to eat as much as they can whenever food is available.
Unfortunately, when food is abundant and rich in calories, as it is today, the results can be ugly.

~ SO that is an ad for a new product, but it really describes how I feel a lot.
How do I convince my mind I am full before I am SO full???
Got any ideas...

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I feel justified

So today I was kind of dreading but also looking forward to my weekly WI. I dreaded it on one hand because I would be disappointed if all my struggling over how the choices in foods I ate while I on vacation didn't work out, meaning I lost nothing or even gained I would feel like I went through all that for nothing.
I was looking forward to it because I know I did really good with portions and I stayed within my guidelines of what I am looking to achieve.
So with my loss of 3 pounds over this last week, well I feel justified for all my actions.
I feel like I am on the right path and I am starting to get this. Even though my mind doesn't always want to cooperate. I don't always want to do whats best for well being because its hard. I want to be like everyone else sometimes. I mean I don't know exactly what that means but if others are just eating like they don't care, sometimes I want to do that too!
But unfortunately for me I have to be very vigilante of what I do because too many slips will send me sliding down the path I don't want to be on. So alas I carry on doing what I know is right for me.

Monday, August 10, 2009

What is wrong in my mind... This is about food of course!

~So why in my mind does one of my very first thoughts about going on vacation turn to food?
~ Why is it that in my excitement I also get all mixed up with achy feelings about food, seriously what the heck is up with me?
Like I get all "oh where can we go eat!"
I'm like thinking about food from the moment we leave.
I try in my mind to plan every meal & snack. I'm a freak almost, at least in my thoughts. (I have never shared these most crazy & personal feelings)
I'm so weird, at times I wonder are other people this excited, curious & crazy about food?
Seriously though sometimes I am all oh let's do this or eat this. I
try very hard not to get too much off track, I try my hardest to be
prepared for what might happen. I think of all my usual hang ups or
hinderances to my success!
~Snacks, I'm equiped with the tools that will keep me on the path
to healthiness. Examples I take lots of fruit... Bananas, apples & I
even pick up others to help me be as successful as possible.
~Munchies, I make sure I have similar items to what others might be
eating. Example being for chocolate, I will bring some fiber one bars!
Or I'll eat something completely different 94% fat free popcorn.
Carrots & Hummus instead of chips.
I do all of things to try and keep myself successful. There are so
many obstecles in my way, it just so hard to predict.
When it comes to being with family or anyone else who just doesn't
care about their own health how can they even be supportive or care
about MINE?

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Sometimes the enemy!

So yea too of my favorite things that I do not have complete control over. I mean I LOVE cheese. If its around I usually want it. My solution so far being in the lifestyle change mode is to have Fat Free cheese around or light. I use light laughing cows which are rich and creamy... feels almost like I am cheating!

The bread OMG the bread. What I can't stand anymore is that its put on my table at dinner. I seem to just MINDLESSLY eat it.
How many pieces was that? Oh 3 now. I don't even need the butter when its nice and warm. Sometimes I want the bread, because I have the "extra" calories left in the day to eat it. Most times though I don't want to be tempted by it or even just like I said before mindless eating happens. I know its rather confusing to my friends. Sometimes I am like yea give me bread and then next time I am like keep it away from me like its the plague.
I am a complex girl with FOOD ISSUES! Sorry its so hard to understand me.
So what is it that I can say to my friends... in a nice way, I will not go out to eat with you if we have the bread, chips or cheese biscuits on the table.
Some of my friends don't have a weight issue or even a problem with food or if they do they don't care. So how is that I bring it up when I am sometimes ok with it but other times I feel like i will go running and screaming out the door if its brought to the table!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Today I was told..

I have no right to be so picky! Well all I have to say is I have no apology for how I want to eat. About what I choose to eat, or what I request to eat.
I've done it the other way for a long time. Look how well that went for myself.
Granted a day of less than healthy menu is fine once and a while but for an every day event, its not something I choose to do.
~ There are 100's of birthdays or going away parties or even potlucks in the year!
There are 4-5 meetings a month at my work, but for myself that doesn't give me license to eat off my plan. Off of the new lifestyle I have chosen.
For the last 2 years I have put myself 1st and I can't stop now. I have my whole life to live!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Found some great quotes....

"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeeded is always to try just one more time." Thomas Edison

"It's NEVER too late ~ never too late to start over, never too late to be happy." Jane Fonda

Also I am loving the song from Miley Cyrus ~
The Climb

Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

SO that song totally express how I am feeling most often. Its my new anthem of my journey through this! I hope Miley doesn't mind. Isn't it strange how songs effect us, but the 1st time I heard this song and started to listen to the lyrics I was like OMG this girl is singing about my struggles right now.

Its August already...

So I am still on my path to a healthier & better life. I struggle almost every day. It seems like food consumes everyone. Or maybe because I have a lot of difficulties with food I just see that. I don't know.
Today I had a party with most of my friends. We could all gain from losing weight and becoming more healthy. Most of us have struggled with weight in our adult lives. The last couple of years since being on WW most of the group has gotten better with dishes brought to potlucks or just the amount of food we have at a party in general. Although today its seemed like we had more than enough.
The longer and longer I take to get it, that FOOD shouldn't control my life, I get somewhat stronger. Or maybe its just an illusion. I know right now thought I can't sit in front of food for any long period of time. Even after I feel that I've satisfied my hunger, if I sit in front of chips, bread or any other reachable food I seem to just grab it. There is no purpose for this eating, but it still happens. Why is that? Why do I feel this need or desire to still eat after I already had my share? I don't get it.
Today though I stopped myself, I came to the realization that right now I am not strong enough to over come this. At least for now I can not sit with food in front of me because I will just mindlessly eat because others are doing the same thing.

I know I am rambling and by this time not making much sense but its something I had to write about. I feel like getting my "issues" with food out here helps. Well see :)